But I also think when you win money, is a downfall for a gambler because the more you win, the more you want. I could have changed my life there and then. And to sit there and just spin it away as if it was nothing, that proves to me there was no relationship with money. I would use that to do so much good, makes so much difference, make a change. But that is a big moment to look back on and use. And looking now, you know, I can’t change the past. But then I though “Oh well, I can do that again”.

I felt sick afterwards because, I honestly felt absolutely sick. And when we’re talking about relationships with money, I didn’t go into work for the next three days and sat there and spun away £127,000. That would have been enough for me to go back and cover up my fraud and have £80,000 deposit for a house. I guess my mentality changed with gambling when I committed fraud and when you know, online I won £127,000. And so that to me proved that it was the actual activity of gambling itself rather than actually winning money in the end for me. I wouldn’t be able to leave or I wouldn’t be able to log off online until that money had gone. Even when I was winning in casinos and things, it would go straight back out. Yeah, I guess I had no relationship with money towards the end.

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